This is Why Letting You Go is So Easy
Letting you go is so easy when I accept true love into my life.
Letting you go is so easy when I accept true love into my life.
I knew all my past struggles and mistakes and hangups and I brought them with me to the present day no matter how long before they had happened and regardless of whether I had resolved them. I subconsciously used them to define myself despite all the great progress I’d made to my life.
We would then look into each other’s eyes, smile and say, “Our love for each other keeps us going” but deep down we knew we were living a lie, at least I did.
We kept in touch every day, then few days apart, a few weeks and then months apart until we became strangers. We moved on with our lives because it was the only choice we had.
I went on dates. I met men again, being hopeful and purposeful. But as usual, I got disappointed and ended up going home crying. Modern dating is a fucking garbage bag, do you know?
I will disappear from your life and one day I will stop writing about you and us anyway. So, let me do it while I still can. Let me be the writer girl who fascinated you in the first place.
You deserve to be with someone else better than me, someone who makes you happy, someone who can warm you with her passionate kisses.
You won’t have to freeze time as they kiss you goodbye at the train station before work as it might be the very last kiss ever had between you two. You won’t have to watch them till they disappear (back) into the sea of strangers as it might be the very last sight of them in this short life you will never fully figure out.
Even when I got home and broke down into tears at 3 am because I realized how overwhelmingly I used to love him and how great it felt to be held by him again, my desire to be with him now weighs so much less than knowing that realistically we have no future.